Hello Sweet Bloggy Friends,
I have spent many days clicked back on my computer, looking at these pages and wondering what to write when there is so much to say....
Things are good. Not living in the land of spectacular as I would like, but its still mostly good speckled between moments of amazing.
And the magic is real, so for that and the many other miracles I have the privilege of witnessing, I am grateful.
So much has happened and yet nothing has really changed...
I turned 30 and I am amazed that so much time as been lived through so quickly. My adult life has been a wonder and is moving along at the speed of a child's summer vacation, looked forward to for so long and over before you know it.
I spent one long weekend in the mountains with Flipper and another in Santa Monica with my brother (where he lives)... Both were beautiful in their own ways and will warrant posts of their own, but I learned that there are some hurt feelings and brokenness in my brother and Flippers friendship and that my bothers perception of how Flipper treats me and our friendship is at the root of it... Though there are other long standing issues there as well... it is sad to see either way.
I went back to Boston for my college friends wedding. I was in it. The dress was smurf blue and if I had had a wand and a pointy hat, I could have been Merriweather, the crabby fat fairy from Sleeping Beauty... Just sayin.
I flew without fear for the first time in as long as I can remember and I noticing the stronger my own faith in the Universe grows, the less scared I am becoming..
I saw The Boy for the first time in a year. I didn't even realize how much I missed him until I saw him. Save for one epic fight the day after my friends wedding, we had visit filled with love and humor. Hours spent touching faces and arms, never letting a moment where we could be touching go by without my hand on his arm, his arm on my waist or my cheek on his shoulder. We drove through neighborhoods where our lives had happened, both together and before we knew each other. We compared stories along the way and dreamed out loud about the home we buy together someday and the imaginary children and pets we would fill it with... It rang about as true as the stories of Fraggles and Smurfs that filled our childhoods but in the moment, it was as real as the grass under our feet and the air in our lungs. It was love and it was true in that time and that place. It was good.
So I am here. I have so much to catch up on. Work is as crazy and heart breaking as ever and all the time off I took has left me with so much to do. I have a stack of mail and letters to that were never sent out before I left that were eyeing me this morning as I walked out the front door and Yoda (my friend and Flippers roommate) is moving back home to Nevada at the end of the month, changing that story line forever but hopefully in a good way for all of us involved. Flippers family will be here in a week or so to help him house hunt, I've officially lost 67lbs and and still working on being a balanced person in each moment of each day. I'm living an intentional life. On purpose, all the time and though its getting easier, it can be a s**t ton of work. :)
My relationships, my work and my adventures are all things I choose every day and work on growing with. Something I've been working on for the last year or two and Im becoming more deliberate in everything I do each day. The people we choose to let into our lives should be worth the effort. Each friendship like a marriage that needs love and attention if it is to survive.
I will share more soon, now that I am back in California and have securely checked my 20's off my cosmic life to do list. Life got so busy for a while that I didnt know where to begin, or what to say.
Sometimes moments are magic that cant be explained they just have to be allowed to be free...
I hope you are all doing amazing and Im looking forward to catching up on reading your blogs and your lives..
LOVE!!!!
Katy
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