The first full moon of my most loved season...
The moon is my perspective. She looks down on us, governs the ebbs and flows of our oceans and our lives and we look back at her in admiration. She is the focus of love songs and coming of age stories and for me she is a reminder. She forces me to know my place. My smallness. To acknowledge that so many people see the same thing and have since time began. That so much came before me and there is still so much to come...
The closing out of summer and a new beginning in the calm of autumn..
I have been gifted with much opportunity and few rules to guide me...except those I've created for myself..
I have been scared for a long time..
Afraid to loose more than I already have that I now count it as a blessing that I have so much to loose...
The evidence of the beauty and the brevity of this life is all around me and I am afraid to miss a moment.
Right now I feel I am just scared enough. Telling people I love them, seeing sights, getting on air planes and driving to the middle of nowhere where so much of my life happened.
I cant control this place, these people, this world and I shouldnt want to... Im letting go.
Its OK to not be Ok sometimes. Its OK to work towards better. And sometimes its even OK to run because if you take a moment to breathe, feel the fall air in your hair, you may run just far enough that you end up where you belong...
So tonight I look at the moon, holding the same promises she has through out my life and the lives lived for centuries before I was even a thought and I wish for love, peace, and home for all of us.
Thank you for being.
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