It's beautiful here right now. Hard to remember why anyone would want to live anywhere else until someone snaps you back to reality and reminds you about scraping ice off of windshields and of sweltering summer days...
So far I have begun to make peace with the idea that my life will never look like what it was "supposed" to look like. What everyone believed I would be and that I need to stop hiding behind over achievement and the like... and live. Sometimes I wonder how some are able to float through life while Im and left to challenge, analyze and explore. Why must I turn over rocks and move mountains while my friends and family are content looking at the stones surface, waiting for the mountain to come to them?
Ill never know. But I can't stop yet. There is a reason in the madness and if hope and possible are out there somewhere, I'm going to keep looking. I won't trust those who try to tell me that they don't exist...
I can't forget but I know now I've forgiven and I had to start with myself. For mistakes made and time wasted. For the no turning back moments where I maybe should have turned back..
I had gone so far forward I have come back to the begining....
A new opportunity to do better this time...
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